O tempus, O homines! As many poets wrote, time runs so fast that my childhood seems just one blink, and now I’m a grown man entering the 3rd 10 years in my life. I still remember vaguely when I was 10 years old that I was so happy to append another digit in my age. And then, I still thought “oh, 18 is still so far away”. And now, my age 18 has long been a memory too, now I’m being pushed by the time to my 20s.
I’m feeling a bit sentimental at this moment. I have to confess it feels blue and even painful to realise that you are no longer a child or youth who is protected by parents, and the child who can spend time liberally without worrying about unfinished tasks. Now, I’m looking forward to bringing my dream to truth, and turning myself into a true adult. Looking back on the last 20 years in this world, I had some great experiences that I’ll never forget: my friends from kingtergaton to university, my teachers, the competitions and places I had been to and of course the love from my family especially my grandparents. I feel sorry that my mum’s dad can’t wait to see me turning 18, 20 and 21, I just want to say I love him, I always do, if he can hear this in heaven and if he can use the internet there.
I’m not much of a plan maker, but maybe it’s time to set some targets for myself before 25. Well, my first priority is to grow more muscle. I’m too thin as an adult, and I’m sure a good body can do me good in my career. The second, study hard and go to a good school for further ornithology study. Actually, I already have some choices in mind, but a lot of hard work still needs to be paid before I can achieve it. And then, to be a good person. In fact, when I was asked by one of my mentors at high school of what I wanted to be in the future , I didn’t give “ornithologist” as an answer, but “good person”. Well, she told me that it would be hard to do so. I didn’t understand then, but now I think I’m undersding better why she said that. Anyway, that should be a target for my life. Then, to love and be loved, I hope I can find someone before 25, but if I have no luck, then… I don’t know… Well, for a short term target, I want to learn Italian and finally manage it.
Yesterday, I went to the zoo of Guangzhou with 3 university friends. When I was a kid, I always urged my mum to bring me there. I knew the place and some animals so well that it amazed my friends. The elephants are old, though they’re still doing tricks for getting food as they did when I went to see them as a tiny animal lover, they are now so thin, the bones are almost visible through the draped skin. If they can talk, I really want to talk with them, want to tell them that I’ve been missing them all these years. And if they can talk, they would must say “O tempus!” too? Seeing into its eyes, I really felt the power of time, the power which is unresistable. Today, I had a body check in the hospital in my university. Since my elementary school is attached to this university, I had come to this hospital for body checks every year during elementary. But then I stoped coming for 8 years because I went to high school. Today, again, walking in the familiar aisles, I’m remind of my good old days, when I played with my little companions. Before we graduate, we had promised not to forget each others, and now… I don’t know… O tempus…
Alright, too much sentimental for today, it’s time to take a deep breath and look forward. Ah, why this sentence is so familiar… oh! My maths teacher from elementary told us that.